I think people as their lives go on experience more and more troubles and with each trouble harder than the next they numb themselves. That’s why they don’t pity young people in high school struggling with work and school and finance and social issues. how dare you put someone else s pain. because that pain might be the most they’ve ever experienced so far and that’s something. it’s something my mother could never understand about me and always put my troubles down as something insignificant, and it hurt. Sometimes I want to do the same thing to others but I forget and I never want someone to think what they’re going through is insignificant cause pain is pain and no matter what it hurts. it’s like a kid getting a paper cut compared to an adult. The adult is used to it but the child is not.
balancing a full time job and school is hard. like for real. the struggle is unhealthy and causing me anxiety up the roof.
there’s just something about him that makes me smile even at my loneliest